I am sorry, you have failed this Mantest...

I have had to sort out in my head a few really fucked experiences lately, All of these experiences have 2 common denominators: myself and someone who is cisgendered.

I. I was having a conversation with some people about bondage and discipline related sexual turn-ons/fetishes. After a bit, it became clear on an unspoken level that there was a disparity in the reasons behind the sexual arousal. (follow so far?)

Basically, the cismen I was speaking with all felt that femdom was a turn-on for them because it was a power struggle / role reversal of sorts. In short, the cismen were sexually aroused BECAUSE the reality is they could easily overpower them.



wow.


Seriously, this fucked me up for days. I've sorted it in my head and come to this conclusion:

how prevalent is this idea, as a social generality, in our culture?

If/when i prodom, I will literally beat with my bare fists, this retarded thinking out of any client who feels this way about femdom. I will call it "aversion therapy". Then I will never see them again.

MY PERSONAL HISTORY:

all my femdom experiences thus far have been soooooo positive, I was treated like the center of the universe. In return, I made the other person feel super awesome to be subbing under me at that moment. It was mutual bliss. :P

Finding out that some cismale subs are this way made my heart and soul ache like a death of a loved one. I have had to endure loss so much that honestly, that is how this felt to me. I saw my bucolic notion of femdom murdered before my eyes.

I'll write about the other cisfest in a future post. I'm sleepy now.